kicking one’s ass: wearing one out; throwing more than one can handle at a person.
I have a headache, my skin is breaking out, I’m blowing off essential tasks, like, you know, feeding my kids. Until yesterday, I hadn’t been to the grocery store in nine days. Now that I’m clued in to how much of my time writing everyday takes, I got smart and bought three gallons of milk, four cartons of orange juice, six pounds of ground beef to freeze, three-dozen eggs and four tubs of cream cheese. Other than being at risk for scurvy, my loved ones should be able to survive for at least a week, right?
When I first heard about the A to Z Blogging Challenge, I thought “Yes, that is just what I need, a daily writing practice!” Somehow the whole bit about it being daily didn’t quite register. It was the writing that I was excited about.
I love the treasure hunt of finding just the right words to describe a thought or experience. I love waking up with a blank slate, then letting my brain skip and hop across the surface of my thoughts until they land on solid ground and suddenly I have something I must write about. I love starting in one place and ending up in another, often unexpected, place, like I did when I wrote about Joel. That piece started out all about me, and my obsession with my life tracker, but it ended up being about something much bigger and more important.
I love writing, but love is not enough when you have to do it daily. You need discipline and time, two things I sorely lack. When I do make space to write, I tend to take quite a while to produce a piece that meets with my own satisfaction. One of the hardest things for me with this challenge is letting go of my fears of imperfection and worries of not being good enough and just writing. I have been writing for years and have always felt this way. No wonder my blog posts barely average twice a month instead of weekly like I’d so gamely planned.
I need this kick in the ass. I admit it.
So here I am on letter K, not even halfway through the alphabet and I am freaking out. What if I’ve already written everything I will ever write? What if I don’t think of a halfway decent topic for Q? How on earth am I going to post when I’m prancing around Disneyland with my three delightful children next week? Ack!
In case anyone else is feeling like I am, here’s a tip I’ve found really helps: read what other people are writing for this challenge. It’s inspiring to see all the creativity and thought out there. There’s my friend Nicki over at Red Boots using OPI nail colors to inspire her daily posts. There’s Victoria blogging at My Love Affair With… who shares exactly how she feels about a comedian, a word or a recipe. I’m totally hooked on hmblanc at The Big Big TANGENT who is gumshoeing his way through the challenge noir-style – and there are so many more.
So yeah, this blogging challenge is tough, but I’m beginning to think it’s not such a bad thing to wake up sore, get my boxing gloves on and kick a little ass of my own. Daily.
I’m participating in the 2014 A to Z Challenge during the month of April using the very broad theme of LOVE to carry me through the alphabet. Check out writing by other bloggers taking on the #atozchallenge at @AprilA2Z.